Thursday, July 24, 2014


This blog has seen so many changes it can barely function. But hey, that's life. That's me. Except, I can function. Sort of.

Anyways, over the past 3 months I have been slowly releasing Lily Love (the fashion site, the blog, the name, the team, the everything that has to do with Lily Love) into the wind. I say it so loosely and some take it so serious. I love Lily Love. That name and that brand is tucked so deep into the inner parts of my heart, only the special souls are allowed to see the naked truth. I'm okay with that. I haven't "thrown it all away" but I am starting fresh. Yeah, this might be the same site, with the same blog posts and the same web address... but it's new. I like it like that.

So enjoy my new blog, che'lyssa mae. I wanted to "label" it something fancy like I always do: fashion + music + art... but mehhh, this time, no labels. Just whatever comes to mind. I hope you enjoy my musings, my random thoughts at random parts of the day and most of all my bad grammar (hey, I'm a lazy girl most of the time).


Wednesday, March 5, 2014

the struggles

I've had so much on my heart lately. Like most days. Most weeks. Mostly, all the time. My heart is always so heavy with the things that surround me: family, friends, work, church, ministry, travels. Once, I thought it to be a curse and a blessing to feel everything so deeply. Ah. Sometimes I still think that to be true. 

I feel everything. Every emotion. Every pain. Every situation. I feel it all. To be honest, part of me enjoys it because it makes me feel alive. It makes me feel. Makes a lot of things tangible to me. When someone comes to me and asks for advice or needs to empty their heavy heart, I take it all in. Every single weight of their words, I tend to carry it on my back. In my heart. It gives me a sense of a rush because I feel like I can help them in some way, shape or form. I can help them find a solution. I can help. 


When that rush stops. When the floodgates are closed and the water sits. I let it. I allow it to settle in my heart, to dig roots into my life. And the moment when I was supposed to let it go, I held onto it. And what does it do to me? 

It consumes me...
It consumes my thoughts...
my words...
It consumes me...

It travels to the deepest places in my heart and weighs me down. Makes me heavy. Heavy with thought, heavy with emotion and heavy with anguish. Good anguish, bad anguish. Over the years, I've learned to take the bad, the heaviness and turn it for good. 

"Che', I have a problem..."

"Okay, let's find a solution... let me pray for you..."

That has been my solution to my heaviness. Finding out what God can do to help. Ultimately, when he takes that problem and covers it with his love and his grace... He covers me too. He takes my burdens and make them light. He takes my heavy heart and gives me freedom. 

So yes, the struggle is real. But so is my Jesus. 

"The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing." -Zephaniah 3:17

Friday, November 22, 2013

golden hour in the park

Last weekend was a weekend of relaxation! My cousin spent the weekend at our house while her parents went on a trip to visit her older brother. We spent Saturday afternoon in the park near our house - well, it's not really a park, it's just a really big patch of grass. I love it there. It's right off the highway, a minute walk from my house and empty. And when the sun goes down and glows on the Ha'upu mountain, that's the part I wait for. We got some pics and had an abundance of laughter passing through our bodies.

These are the moments I live for: the small but fulfilling moments of my life.

Thursday, November 21, 2013

today's encouraging video

no explanation needed. 

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

music // my top 4

I love to listen to music. It doesn't matter what I'm doing, I need music. Whether it be driving, cleaning the house, blogging (I'm listening to "Lover of the Light by Mumford & Sons right now!) but mostly, I need music when I am working in my Lily Love workshop. Some days I'm on a bluesy kick and sometimes I'm listening to island jams, but these four albums have been keeping me alive on quiet days around the house. And thanks Spotify for always being on-point with the song selections!

1. Kenny Loggins, Celebrate Me Home - My goodness. If music be the food of love, I'd eat this album up. I heard my dad listening to it one day and as soon as "Celebrate Me Home" came on, I was sold. 

2. Young the Giant, Young the Giant - The lyrics people, the lyrics. It's those heart-wrenching, soul searching, deep to the core lyrics that have me hooked. It's golden. 

3. The Civil Wars, Dust to Dust - Do I even need to explain how great this duo is? When they announced that they were "splitting up" last year I cried and said a prayer to God that they'd reunite! God answered, because they're back in action and my heart is happy again. But really, this album stays true to who they are. You won't go wrong.

4. Mumford & Sons, Babel - O K... these guys too. The lyrics and the honesty and the organic sound of this album is what always keeps me hooked to these (beautiful) men. I loved Sigh No More so much and although I love that album much more than this one, this one still gives me the chills. 

Monday, November 18, 2013

in a nutshell

Life has been a bit of a whirlwind as of late and although I'm still trying to catch my breath from the latest events, I'm enjoying every single moment. To be honest, I think that sometimes life is appreciated more when it gets busy because when you have those moments of calmness, you truly appreciate what your life has become. 

| Thankful for... I am thankful for my family and my friends. Being twenty-six and finally realizing that you do not need 40 different types of friends because 2 or 3 really honest, trustworthy people will be sufficient enough. Having come to the realization of that has been one of the most liberating things this year. Also having those three "honest Abe's" in my life has really set me on the right track. And my family, well... they've always been there and I'm always thankful for them. 

| Excited about... Well, first off, it's pouring rain and the house is quiet and if you know me, I get really excited about that. Ha! Mostly, I'm excited about the holidays: the dinners, the camaraderie between friends and family, the presents, the parties. My heart is skipping beats just looking forward to all of the fun days/nights ahead. Oh, I'm also excited to watch Thor. Only because Tom Hiddleston is in it.

| Annoyed with... My medical plan. It needs to be better. Ok, that's all. 

| Happy with... two new jobs, the rain and that I finally sat down and wrote down my goals for the next year. 

| Listening to... Lots of Young the Giant, Daryl Hall + Rumer, Tupac and Kendrick Lamar. Such a weird mix, but my gosh does it get me through the day in the Lily Love workshop.